• Understanding You

    I am my father.

    Everything that annoys me about my dad I tend to do to other people. I find it funny that I get annoyed with myself. There is no explanation for how that works. But I  know my dad and I always have to have our way. I can never again complain about the things he does wrong because I will do it and sometimes worse. He is more charming when he convinces people and I use all of my emotions. I can never deny DNA because everything he does I do too. So my complaints about my father make no sense because we are the share we just have different ways…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    Molestation Jokes Aren’t Funny. Period.

    I don’t know rather or not it’s the age difference but people over 45 see the world completely different than people under 45. Things don’t stick with them the same way. Or another way to put it they are not bothered by the same things younger people are. The #MeToo moment has became a big thing for a very obvious reason. Women are starting to speak up against sexual abuse. After being silent for years they finally have a voice. I am one of these women. So when someone makes a passive joke about molestation it bothers me. Because it’s not just a joke it is something that has happen…

  • Understanding You

    How Your OCD Can Be Positive

    As a person with OCD a lot of times we focus on the negative. OCD tends to place negative thoughts into our heads or cause us to take actions based on a negative thought. We try our hardest to control our OCD so that we can focus on trying to keep it dormant, but there are times when our OCD can be active. Did you know that your OCD can be positive? Yeah, when I first heard this from my therapist I couldn’t believe it! I could take my compulsions and reoccurring thoughts and use them for good? Great idea! But how does one start to do that? Well for…

  • Understanding You

    Talking is Healing

    In my family, we like to keep our problems to ourselves. It seems better to hide away and not talk about ourselves, but that isn’t the case. We hide because we are embarrassed about the things that have happened in our households. We try to cover the shame by trying to appear perfect all the time. What I am about to tell you is a fact, it’s impossible to be perfect. If perfection existed we wouldn’t have problems. I am learning this the hard way. As I understand my OCD, I learn that not everything can be controlled. Me my mom, my aunt, and my cousin all sat around at…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Things I Like

    No Anxiety Medicine

    Since my dose on my anti-depressant was upped I have no need for my anxiety medicine as much. I used to take it twice a day but now I’m down to one. It’s feels great. You all know I don’t like taking my meds. I don’t like taking medicine period. I also don’t like the way it tastes. But since I see the results I feel better about it. Before I was too reliant on my anxiety medicine to the point I couldn’t go without it. It makes me sleepy, so when I want to get some rest I use it to knock me out. It’s like Benadryl for me.

  • A Day in the Life,  Uncategorized

    My Dad My Frenemy

    Hanging out with my dad can be a lot of fun. Most of the time we joke around a lot. We have a language that no one else really understands. My mom doesn’t really understand us. One thing I realized about my dad and I are that we are the same person. We think similarly and both need to have our way. This can be problematic because me and my dad have different anxieties. Our personalities clash all the time for this one reason. My dad’s OCD natures of keeping everything messes with my OCD of wanting everything to be organized and clean. I sometimes get so irritated with him.…

  • A Day in the Life,  Things I Like

    A Little Wine Is Okay

    I drink sometimes. I just have a glass of wine or some margarita mix. I never drink too much to get wasted. I never want that feeling and I’ve heard it’s horrible. I try to drink when I feel fine and have a healthy state of mind. I never drink when I’m upset. I love Moscato. It’s my favorite wine. I enjoy that with some popcorn and then I have it, the perfect tv night.

  • A Day in the Life

    They Upped My Meds

    Recently I got my medicine upped. It wasn’t a shock. I knew my meds were strong enough even though I had them upped once before. Recently I’ve been calm, very calm. I didn’t realize this was a thing. If this is what other people feel like, I needed this a long time ago. What I like the best it is that it keeps me asleep. I have trouble sleeping so this is perfect. This is a big change talking positively about my medicine. I had been fighting it since the beginning, but now I’m starting to see the good that can come out of it. I guess I can say…

  • A Day in the Life

    I Like To Feel Pretty

    I like to get my hair done, nails done, and put my makeup on. Things that make me feel pretty make me feel wonderful on the inside. Now I don’t have to have all these things all at the same time. When I get my nails done, I feel fabulous and the best part is I get compliments. My nails have cute designs and crystals that shine on my fingers. Sometimes I get artwork sometimes I keep it simple, but I need my nails to be done. I always get a super girly color, but it’s always cute. I get my nails done every two weeks. As far as my…

  • Things I Like

    TV Is Good For You

    TV can be nostalgic and nostalgia can help people feel good and calm. I recently saw a Shirley Temple DVD commercial that put me in a great mood. I remember watching it all the time when I was a kid and I used to sing along just as I did when I saw it again. Most of the time I watch old tv shows. Before the huge controvesary, The Cosby Show was one of my favorites. I loved that family and they still hold a dear place in my heart. The show would come on at Nick @ Nite and they would play a few episodes. I would watch it…