• A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress,  Things That Bother Me Badly

    Losing Hope in Yourself

    I listened to a sermon about hope. I never thought much about the word. I assumed that it was something that people relied on when they were in dire need. But hope was more than that. To have hope is to have a feeling of expectation of something to happen. Well, I didn’t know what I expected to happen within myself. I wanted to achieve so much in my life that I haven’t stopped to think when I was in the now.  I didn’t expect a lot of myself anymore because I kind of gave up. I did the one thing you’re never supposed to do. I broke the ultimate…

  • A Day in the Life

    Relax and Watch YouTube

    I suffer from anxiety and depression and sometimes I need something to get my mind off what’s going in my head. A lot of times it helps to interact with people, but in case you can’t get in touch with people you can watch them online. There is a magical place called YouTube. I have been watching YouTube for a while and have many videos that bring back good memories. Every time I would stress out I would find something to watch and laugh about. There is always something to watch on YouTube. Here’s the thing, every time you’re stressed you should find your favorite thing and look it up…

  • Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress

    How My Stress Caused Me to be Sick

    I am convinced that I am the worst at handling stress. At the drop of a hat I can stress out and the worse part is I make myself sick. I get a headache and can’t get rid of it. It’s hard to shake and Advil can’t help it. It sucks, but I know there has to be a better alternative than to just stress out. But my stressing out is also relating to my overthinking. I don’t know how to clear my mind. For me it starts with anxiety and then it turns into stress. The worst part is my medicine doesn’t really help. I wish it did. Sometimes…

  • Anxiety

    How to Deal with Anxiety

    Anxiety is something that everyone experiences. Even though some people have higher anxiety than others, people still need help calming down when they feel their hearts are in their throats. Calming your anxiety is hard. I used to let my anxious feelings take over. While I panicked nothing was being solved. I have was going around in circles and life was not stopping. I had to learn, to not panic and move on. Don’t focus on what is not happening or what should be happening. I knew that deep down inside I couldn’t control everything although I wanted to. Control is what kept me happy, but you can’t control everything.…

  • A Day in the Life,  Dealing With Stress

    How to Destress While Playing Video Games

    I have already talked about how videos games can help relieve stress. So why am I mentioning it again? Well because it’s true. When I’m stressed I grab my phone and play my favorite games for an hour or so. It’s relaxing because I focus on my game and forget everyone and everything else. That is possible. Sometimes we need to clear our mind and what better way than to put your focus on something else. Most of the time I play on my mobile apps. I’ll play Linda Brown: Interactive Story, Homescapes, The Simpsons Tapped Out, Kingdom Hearts Union X, and Solitaire Tri Peaks. It’s a lot of games…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    I’m Not Stressed

    For the first time in months, I am not feeling like I’m going to explode from the inside out. I have been stressed out my entire life trying to do everything at once. I have put standards on myself that are hard to upkeep. I didn’t know what it’s like to breathe, but I do now.  I always thought that it was something that people who were established did. I couldn’t enjoy life because I needed to be established. I’m learning to live and let live. I know that I’m not letting anyone down except myself. If I continue to put high standards on myself I feel I would have…

  • Understanding You

    I am my father.

    Everything that annoys me about my dad I tend to do to other people. I find it funny that I get annoyed with myself. There is no explanation for how that works. But I  know my dad and I always have to have our way. I can never again complain about the things he does wrong because I will do it and sometimes worse. He is more charming when he convinces people and I use all of my emotions. I can never deny DNA because everything he does I do too. So my complaints about my father make no sense because we are the share we just have different ways…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    Molestation Jokes Aren’t Funny. Period.

    I don’t know rather or not it’s the age difference but people over 45 see the world completely different than people under 45. Things don’t stick with them the same way. Or another way to put it they are not bothered by the same things younger people are. The #MeToo moment has became a big thing for a very obvious reason. Women are starting to speak up against sexual abuse. After being silent for years they finally have a voice. I am one of these women. So when someone makes a passive joke about molestation it bothers me. Because it’s not just a joke it is something that has happen…

  • A Day in the Life

    Christmas Trees Go Up Before December

    If you are one of the late people placing their trees up around this time you are probably stressing. There is barely anything to put onto your tree except those plastic balls that are about fifteen dollars for a pack of thirty. They are cute, but not that cute. If you find a decoration you like, it’s only one of them. I would suggest something for the future. Decorate your tree before Thanks Giving. It will make it so much easier for you to enjoy your holiday. I mean you can be super early like me and decorate in October, but that’s only if you have like seven trees. But…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    Mom Stress = My Stress

    When I was little I always paid attention to my mother when she cried. I never thought mommies could cry, but I learned at a young age. My mother’s pain was something I took on because I wanted my family to be perfect. If I took on her pain then I could understand her and help her get better. I know that I should not worry about my mother’s problems, but my OCD kicks in. I want a perfect family. When my mom is upset I feel as though the perfect family is falling apart. My mom is not good at hiding her feeling and I have watched her go…