• A Day in the Life,  Things That Bother Me Badly

    That Annoying Guy From Years Ago.

    Over the years I have learned that guys are weird. I have dealt with many different guys. Like I’m still getting messages from a guy I used to go out with while in middle school and he tries to talk to me on Facebook. The worst part is that he is married and has been for a few years. I haven’t had an in-person conversation with him since freshman year of high school. Guys are complicated and personally have me in no rush to have a boyfriend. But this guy I’m about to tell you about is more than a headache. When I stopped talking to this one guy I…

  • Understanding You

    Drugs? Try Instagram!

    I want to tell a little story. Sit back and get ready for a ride. Can the real Instagram addicts please stand up? I know you’re out there somewhere because Instagram doesn’t have five stars on the app store for nothing #dude. Well, I know you won’t because you probably don’t think you’re addicted. You only check it every so often because that stupid alarm notified you that someone liked your selfie, Starbucks, or whatever half naked picture you posted to your private account. Or you just use it for work like every hair stylist located in a two block radius. Or maybe you don’t use it that much which…

  • A Day in the Life

    I don’t comb my hair.

    Here’s a fun fact about me. I don’t comb my hair. Weird right? I don’t like to do it, especially when I first get my hair down because it was just done. I tend to just put my bonnet on and just let my hair sit. I do this all day unless I leave the house. Then if I need my hair combed I finger comb it or do a hair flip. I’m not interested in hair. My mom does hair for a living and she is the only reason I worry about my hair as often as I do. I know that my hair needs to be moisturized and…

  • A Day in the Life

    How a TV Show Taught Me to Chill

    I had heard of Little House on the Prairie, but never got a chance to watch it. Thanks to Amazon Prime I have been able to binge to my heart’s desire. The show is wholesome, funny, and very inspirational. I have never thought I could learn anything from a tv drama, but I have been wrong. Since I have been watching the show I have learned how to chill. The main theme of the show is to not worry, because everything will be alright. There is one thing hear it from people, but to see it play out in real life situations is different. It hard to believe everything will…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    I’m Not Stressed

    For the first time in months, I am not feeling like I’m going to explode from the inside out. I have been stressed out my entire life trying to do everything at once. I have put standards on myself that are hard to upkeep. I didn’t know what it’s like to breathe, but I do now.  I always thought that it was something that people who were established did. I couldn’t enjoy life because I needed to be established. I’m learning to live and let live. I know that I’m not letting anyone down except myself. If I continue to put high standards on myself I feel I would have…

  • Understanding You

    Why I’m Scared to Date!

    I have finally realized why I don’t date. It was kind of like an epiphany. I never felt good enough to date any man. This is weird because I have been asked out by many guys. It wasn’t that these guys weren’t attractive or that they were weird. I was actually the weird one. I feel like a child. I feel that I didn’t know how to be in a relationship. Well, the thing is that I don’t think anyone does. Relationships are complicated and about two people not just yourself. That’s the part I can’t move past. I’m still working on me. How can I deal with someone else…

  • Things I Like

    How to Feel Happy

    When you are feeling a little sad there is always a way to pick yourself up and pick a big smile on your face. First thing first, don’t ever put food into your mouth to feel happy. You don’t want the weight. I have been there and done that. I’m telling you the truth. Don’t do it. But every-so-often a cup of ice cream is good for the soul and I stand by that. But don’t eat it every day. Now since I have gotten that out of the way, let me tell you how I make myself feel better. For the past couple of nights, I have watched YouTube…

  • Understanding You

    Sorry Me

    My mom was getting rid of some old letters and pictures when I came also a young picture of myself. My mom had walked away, while I was alone I looked at the pictures and kissed the smiling girl in her pretty outfit. I told her this, “what happened was not your fault. You were young and didn’t know what you were doing. I forgive you. God forgives you. I placed the picture down with tears forming in my eyes. I wasn’t wrong. For so long I blamed myself for things that happened in my past. As you get older you understand what you have done wrong in the past.…

  • Healthy Living,  Understanding You

    Experiencing the Daniel Fast

    The Daniel Fast is something my mom partakes in every year and for the past six years, I have avoided it. I have fasted before for one or two days. I only drank water during those times. Other times I have only eaten after twelve or after three. So fasting is nothing new to me. So you’re probably wondering why haven’t I’ve done this particular fast? Well… The Daniel Fast is completely different than other fasts because it lasts for twenty-one days. During this time, you are only allowed to eat food that comes from the ground. That means no animals or animal by-products. So it’s vegan, right? No! It’s…

  • Understanding You

    My OCD Has Become a Crutch.

    I never wanted to think as my OCD as paralyzing, but it definitely happened. I leaned so much on my mental illness that I couldn’t move forward in life. Simple life tasks seemed hard because I refused to do them because of my OCD. My mom decided to be completely honest with me. Like any mother, she said what I needed to hear in love. I realized that my mental health was getting worse instead of better. The medication I’m taking didn’t seem to be working because I’m not letting it work. I was not getting better because I didn’t think I could. If I am being completely honest I…