• Understanding You

    I am my father.

    Everything that annoys me about my dad I tend to do to other people. I find it funny that I get annoyed with myself. There is no explanation for how that works. But I  know my dad and I always have to have our way. I can never again complain about the things he does wrong because I will do it and sometimes worse. He is more charming when he convinces people and I use all of my emotions. I can never deny DNA because everything he does I do too. So my complaints about my father make no sense because we are the share we just have different ways…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    Molestation Jokes Aren’t Funny. Period.

    I don’t know rather or not it’s the age difference but people over 45 see the world completely different than people under 45. Things don’t stick with them the same way. Or another way to put it they are not bothered by the same things younger people are. The #MeToo moment has became a big thing for a very obvious reason. Women are starting to speak up against sexual abuse. After being silent for years they finally have a voice. I am one of these women. So when someone makes a passive joke about molestation it bothers me. Because it’s not just a joke it is something that has happen…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Things I Like

    No Anxiety Medicine

    Since my dose on my anti-depressant was upped I have no need for my anxiety medicine as much. I used to take it twice a day but now I’m down to one. It’s feels great. You all know I don’t like taking my meds. I don’t like taking medicine period. I also don’t like the way it tastes. But since I see the results I feel better about it. Before I was too reliant on my anxiety medicine to the point I couldn’t go without it. It makes me sleepy, so when I want to get some rest I use it to knock me out. It’s like Benadryl for me.

  • A Day in the Life,  Things I Like

    A Little Wine Is Okay

    I drink sometimes. I just have a glass of wine or some margarita mix. I never drink too much to get wasted. I never want that feeling and I’ve heard it’s horrible. I try to drink when I feel fine and have a healthy state of mind. I never drink when I’m upset. I love Moscato. It’s my favorite wine. I enjoy that with some popcorn and then I have it, the perfect tv night.

  • A Day in the Life

    They Upped My Meds

    Recently I got my medicine upped. It wasn’t a shock. I knew my meds were strong enough even though I had them upped once before. Recently I’ve been calm, very calm. I didn’t realize this was a thing. If this is what other people feel like, I needed this a long time ago. What I like the best it is that it keeps me asleep. I have trouble sleeping so this is perfect. This is a big change talking positively about my medicine. I had been fighting it since the beginning, but now I’m starting to see the good that can come out of it. I guess I can say…

  • Understanding You

    Learning From A Breakdown

    When I was all in my feelings the other day I learned something new about myself. Most of the time after a breakdown I would feel down, depressed, and embarrassed, but today I didn’t. I learned that you can control your emotions. You can choose rather or not you want to be upset or happy. Not every situation has to end badly. Yesterday was an example of me taking things to personal. In life, you have to learn how to brush things off and move on. It hurts to hear this. Actually, it hurts to even say it, but it’s true. Know that you are not the only one who…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress,  Things That Bother Me Badly,  Understanding You

    I Had A Mental Breakdown

    I had a mental breakdown today. Yes, ironic that I didn’t follow my own advice, but I was really in my feelings. I have a hard time dealing with change. It becomes my downfall a lot of times. My parents are the best at helping me, but it’s taking the help that is the problem. I know that it is easy, but I find it hard to move forward. So what happened to me today? I went to the psychiatrist to get my prescription. I go about every two months. The medicine normally lasts me all the way to then. Today as I sat down across from my psychiatrist I…

  • Things I Like

    Ice Cream Is Good For The Soul

    If you haven’t noticed, I post about ice cream a lot on Instagram, that’s because I love it. Ice cream makes me happy when I’m sad. To be frank it is good all year around. If I had it my way ice cream would be a health food. Certain flavors don’t even have that much sugar. I’m also counting popsicles as ice cream too. It’s literally frozen juice and I love juice. I recently fell completely in love with ice cream when I went to this place that had the most unique flavors. You might have heard of it, it’s called Jeni’s. They have the best ice cream. Every time…

  • A Day in the Life,  Things I Like

    Routines Are Good For the Soul

    Routines are things we can control. People have nightly routines and morning routines and even daily routines. I like to stick to my routines because it feels like I am accomplishing something. I give myself mental check marks in my head. If I can’t get things done I feel unaccomplished. There is no better way to soothe your anxiety than to have a routine. If you want to start a routine start off with something simple. Do something like washing your face and brushing your teeth at night right before you go to bed. You can even do a cleaning routine. But your routines don’t have to be daily. You…

  • Understanding You

    Let Me Wash My Hands Please

    If I were to rank my compulsions hand washing would be at the very top. I wash my hands more than twenty times a day and most of the times are unnecessary. Washing your hands too much removes the good germs from your skin. Actually, you need the bad germs too. My hands don’t feel clean unless I have them in clean water and soap. The water was to be burning hot. I need for my hands to feel clean so that I won’t have that tingly feeling on my hands. It’s a feeling that happens when I touch something I feel is unclean. I’m sure everything is unclean, but…