• Healthy Living,  Understanding You

    Experiencing the Daniel Fast

    The Daniel Fast is something my mom partakes in every year and for the past six years, I have avoided it. I have fasted before for one or two days. I only drank water during those times. Other times I have only eaten after twelve or after three. So fasting is nothing new to me. So you’re probably wondering why haven’t I’ve done this particular fast? Well… The Daniel Fast is completely different than other fasts because it lasts for twenty-one days. During this time, you are only allowed to eat food that comes from the ground. That means no animals or animal by-products. So it’s vegan, right? No! It’s…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    Mom Stress = My Stress

    When I was little I always paid attention to my mother when she cried. I never thought mommies could cry, but I learned at a young age. My mother’s pain was something I took on because I wanted my family to be perfect. If I took on her pain then I could understand her and help her get better. I know that I should not worry about my mother’s problems, but my OCD kicks in. I want a perfect family. When my mom is upset I feel as though the perfect family is falling apart. My mom is not good at hiding her feeling and I have watched her go…

  • Things I Like

    I Have the Best Lil Bro in the World

    I love having a little brother. He is the best dude in the world. He is one of my many rocks. I have three altogether. My brother Devin is a very chill person. He doesn’t say much and observes everything. He has an opinion and when you need it he gives it to you. His opinion is always honest and helpful. He makes a lot of jokes, but he is a teenager, so I can only expect so much. What I like most about him is that he listens. He tells me the truth and gives me advice as though he is my older brother. He is taller than me,…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress,  Things That Bother Me Badly,  Understanding You

    I Had A Mental Breakdown

    I had a mental breakdown today. Yes, ironic that I didn’t follow my own advice, but I was really in my feelings. I have a hard time dealing with change. It becomes my downfall a lot of times. My parents are the best at helping me, but it’s taking the help that is the problem. I know that it is easy, but I find it hard to move forward. So what happened to me today? I went to the psychiatrist to get my prescription. I go about every two months. The medicine normally lasts me all the way to then. Today as I sat down across from my psychiatrist I…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    Talk Yourself Off the Ledge

    I don’t like going to crowded places. This is mainly because of parking. I hate going somewhere and not knowing where to park. Everything in my body goes up. My anxiety is off the chain and I can’t focus on anything else but that one thing. It makes fun event downtown kind of not fun until twenty minutes into the event. Believe it or not. I get just as stressed out as when someone else is behind the wheel. If I don’t know if I can park or not, I don’t want to go. That harsh feeling in my chest and that heavyweight in my brain is not worth it.…

  • A Day in the Life,  Understanding You

    I’m Not Pregnant, But I’m Lactating!

    All medications have side effects. If you watch any medicine commercial you can hear the announcer rattle off the list of horror. You began to question if the medicine should even be advertised in the first place. Since I’ve been on my antidepressants, I have only experienced sleepiness and increased eating. Everything else in my body was working fine until recently. Ladies, you might understand this one and gents this much just be good information. I tend to touch my breast a lot, so I know every lump, bump, formation to be had on each boob. One day as I scratched my breast I noticed a clear liquid came out.…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Things I Like

    Cleaning Is Joy

    For me cleaning is therapeutic. I talk to women who find cleaning to be a drag and do it’s only because they have too. I understand because when you are the only one doing it, it can be frustrating, but there is joy in it. Here are my reasons for liking to clean: You get stuff in the order you want it. When I clean I like all my dishes in order. I don’t like having a pan in one place and the lid in the other. I also don’t like to dig through unorganized pots just to get the one I want. When I do this all myself, I…