• A Day in the Life,  Things That Bother Me Badly

    That Annoying Guy From Years Ago.

    Over the years I have learned that guys are weird. I have dealt with many different guys. Like I’m still getting messages from a guy I used to go out with while in middle school and he tries to talk to me on Facebook. The worst part is that he is married and has been for a few years. I haven’t had an in-person conversation with him since freshman year of high school. Guys are complicated and personally have me in no rush to have a boyfriend. But this guy I’m about to tell you about is more than a headache. When I stopped talking to this one guy I…

  • A Day in the Life,  Understanding You

    Music to My Ears

    I remember when I was a kid I always had one song stuck in my head. For the life of me I can’t remember where I was when I first heard it. The memories I have are false. I found that out through looking up when the song first came out, 2006. The memory I recall comes from 2005. That’s a year difference. In 2005 and 2006 I lived in two different houses. I always wanted to hold on to this memory because it was so positive and fun, but knowing that I had fabricated it made me upset. Memories are weird because depending on the details what you recall…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    Ask Him Questions

    I sat next to my small group leader in an aluminum chair listening to young women share their experiences living in Christ. I remember when I first got saved I felt invincible. There was nothing that could touch me because my BFF was Jesus Christ. Everything was amazing, my friends all went to church and they were on board, life was easy. It’s hard for me to say great because I did meet resistance. Not everyone had a positive experience being a Christian. I learned this years later going through college and meeting people who were scarred from past wounds of losing someone or feeling as though God had failed…

  • A Day in the Life

    Popcorn Love

    My family loves popcorn. So much that we keep it in stock at the house. My dad will sometimes go to the movie theater to buy their popcorn. It tastes good and I didn’t know that you could buy movie theater popcorn without a ticket buy anyway. My dad eats popcorn every day, my younger brother, Devin, used too before braces and my mom and I make our popcorn. Frankly, I don’t think we could live without it. But I realized something about my family. Popcorn is more than our favorite snack it’s also a gift. For me, it’s how I say I’m sorry. Sounds weird. I make people popcorn…

  • Understanding You

    Why I’m Scared to Date!

    I have finally realized why I don’t date. It was kind of like an epiphany. I never felt good enough to date any man. This is weird because I have been asked out by many guys. It wasn’t that these guys weren’t attractive or that they were weird. I was actually the weird one. I feel like a child. I feel that I didn’t know how to be in a relationship. Well, the thing is that I don’t think anyone does. Relationships are complicated and about two people not just yourself. That’s the part I can’t move past. I’m still working on me. How can I deal with someone else…

  • Understanding You

    I’m An OCD Christian (This is What it is Like)

    Quite frankly as I have gone through my OCD problems I realized how hard my illness clashed with my faith. It was bad enough that I couldn’t stop worrying but at the same time, I prayed to a God I very much believed it. My OCD made our connect kind of weak, like very bad wifi. I went to church every week and listened to what God had to tell me, but at the same time, I couldn’t apply the information to myself. I wanted to fall into my compulsions and worries because to me it felt safer. Somehow safer wasn’t in the arms of The Lord. I felt bad…

  • Understanding You

    Getting Your Family to Help You

    When my mom found out I was OCD she was the most supportive person in the house. My brother was on board, but my dad didn’t grasp what was going on. I couldn’t explain to him what it meant to be OCD. He didn’t know anything except for what my mom and I told him. But even though my mom is supportive, she doesn’t really know what OCD is either. I always feel bad for the stress I cause my mom when I have a mental break down. There is no way to explain to her how I truly feel. She kind of gets it because she is depressed, but…

  • Dealing With Stress

    What Not To Do When Someone Is In An Abusive Relationship

    I never thought I would meet someone in an abusive relationship. Relationships are supposed to be healthy and bring joy to a person’s life. When a person is drastically changing and staying away from their family, that’s when there is a problem. It brings a lot of emotional stress to the people around the person they love so much. We all hate to see that person fail or get hurt. I have a relative who couldn’t even stay during a Christmas Eve party because she wanted to get to her boyfriend. As her family, we were all upset, but we really didn’t know what we could say, so we figured…

  • Things I Like

    I Have the Best Lil Bro in the World

    I love having a little brother. He is the best dude in the world. He is one of my many rocks. I have three altogether. My brother Devin is a very chill person. He doesn’t say much and observes everything. He has an opinion and when you need it he gives it to you. His opinion is always honest and helpful. He makes a lot of jokes, but he is a teenager, so I can only expect so much. What I like most about him is that he listens. He tells me the truth and gives me advice as though he is my older brother. He is taller than me,…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Things I Like

    No Anxiety Medicine

    Since my dose on my anti-depressant was upped I have no need for my anxiety medicine as much. I used to take it twice a day but now I’m down to one. It’s feels great. You all know I don’t like taking my meds. I don’t like taking medicine period. I also don’t like the way it tastes. But since I see the results I feel better about it. Before I was too reliant on my anxiety medicine to the point I couldn’t go without it. It makes me sleepy, so when I want to get some rest I use it to knock me out. It’s like Benadryl for me.