• Understanding You

    I’m Faking It!

    All my life I wanted to be a fiction writer. I used to write fiction all the time and felt the need to try to get into fiction writing. I have learned that once I got into fiction class I wasn’t the best fiction writer. Let me tell you something… I gave my life to fiction. It was all I ever dreamed of and I thought that when I hit fiction class I was the bomb. I sat down in my uncomfortable wooden chair. I was ready for everyone to praise me for everything I did right. I was so excited for that moment to come. I sat with my…

  • A Day in the Life

    Beginnings of a YouTuber

    Is YouTube for everyone? Well, you would have to find out for yourself if it suits you, but this is about me and my journey to becoming a YouTuber. Frankly, I didn’t want a YouTube channel. Part of the reason was that I was not into DIYs and makeup at the time when it was suggested to me. Another reason I didn’t want to YouTube was because I hated my voice on camera. This was a legit reason not to start, but it, fortunately, didn’t keep me from starting. Making a channel is easy; you do a few clicks, and before you know you it you’re done. I was too…

  • A Day in the Life

    How a TV Show Taught Me to Chill

    I had heard of Little House on the Prairie, but never got a chance to watch it. Thanks to Amazon Prime I have been able to binge to my heart’s desire. The show is wholesome, funny, and very inspirational. I have never thought I could learn anything from a tv drama, but I have been wrong. Since I have been watching the show I have learned how to chill. The main theme of the show is to not worry, because everything will be alright. There is one thing hear it from people, but to see it play out in real life situations is different. It hard to believe everything will…

  • Understanding You

    My OCD Has Become a Crutch.

    I never wanted to think as my OCD as paralyzing, but it definitely happened. I leaned so much on my mental illness that I couldn’t move forward in life. Simple life tasks seemed hard because I refused to do them because of my OCD. My mom decided to be completely honest with me. Like any mother, she said what I needed to hear in love. I realized that my mental health was getting worse instead of better. The medication I’m taking didn’t seem to be working because I’m not letting it work. I was not getting better because I didn’t think I could. If I am being completely honest I…

  • Things I Like

    I Have the Best Lil Bro in the World

    I love having a little brother. He is the best dude in the world. He is one of my many rocks. I have three altogether. My brother Devin is a very chill person. He doesn’t say much and observes everything. He has an opinion and when you need it he gives it to you. His opinion is always honest and helpful. He makes a lot of jokes, but he is a teenager, so I can only expect so much. What I like most about him is that he listens. He tells me the truth and gives me advice as though he is my older brother. He is taller than me,…

  • Things I Like,  Understanding You

    Writing Is Therapeutic

    I gained the nickname “Writer Chick” from my mom because I write so much. I have a passion for it the same way some men do about football; in translation, I take it seriously. There has never been a time when I wasn’t writing something down. Expressing myself in words make me feel at ease. Anyone can understand me on the page if the did understand me when I speak. One thing I tried to do is to keep a journal, this was always an epic fail for me. I could never write down my day every day. I could, however, write down significant events, or strong feelings I couldn’t…

  • A Day in the Life,  Things I Like

    Routines Are Good For the Soul

    Routines are things we can control. People have nightly routines and morning routines and even daily routines. I like to stick to my routines because it feels like I am accomplishing something. I give myself mental check marks in my head. If I can’t get things done I feel unaccomplished. There is no better way to soothe your anxiety than to have a routine. If you want to start a routine start off with something simple. Do something like washing your face and brushing your teeth at night right before you go to bed. You can even do a cleaning routine. But your routines don’t have to be daily. You…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    Things I Can’t Talk About

    I have a lot of things that have happened in my life that I am perfectly fine talking about. I can put almost anything out there, but somethings hold me back. Talking about certain things with my family and friends that make me uncomfortable. I recently published a post called “What Triggered My OCD.” I read the stats and saw that not too many people saw it and then deleted the post, the word document and deleted the trash. I was a little scared only two people saw it, but it was better than thirty. I am fearful of being judged for certain things in my life because I have…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress

    Hiding You. I Mean Your Compulsions.

    No one understands compulsions. For starters, it’s hard to explain OCD to people period. A lot of the stresses that you go through most people think you should just get over. It’ hard to explain to people why you jump over cracks in the floor or why you only enter through doors on the left and never on the right. Those things make us feel better. Being around people that see you do this often isn’t a big deal. Family and friends who know you and your habits are used to you, but what do you do when you are around people who don’t know your habits? One of my…

  • A Day in the Life,  Things I Like

    Retail Therapy is Real Therapy ( Not Just For the Mentally Ill)

    I woke up early on Tuesday morning to head out with my mom to do some shopping. We had to travel all the way to Lawrenceville. I’m not an early bird. I went to bed about two in the morning hoping that I could run on adrenaline later on in the day. I was to be comfortable, so I needed sneakers, not heels, or sandals. All these factors mattered. When my mom woke me up later that morning I grudgingly rolled out of bed and prepared to go shopping at the thrift store. This was going to be the best therapy ever. This was my first time to a thrift…