• Understanding You

    I am my father.

    Everything that annoys me about my dad I tend to do to other people. I find it funny that I get annoyed with myself. There is no explanation for how that works. But I  know my dad and I always have to have our way. I can never again complain about the things he does wrong because I will do it and sometimes worse. He is more charming when he convinces people and I use all of my emotions. I can never deny DNA because everything he does I do too. So my complaints about my father make no sense because we are the share we just have different ways…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Things I Like

    No Anxiety Medicine

    Since my dose on my anti-depressant was upped I have no need for my anxiety medicine as much. I used to take it twice a day but now I’m down to one. It’s feels great. You all know I don’t like taking my meds. I don’t like taking medicine period. I also don’t like the way it tastes. But since I see the results I feel better about it. Before I was too reliant on my anxiety medicine to the point I couldn’t go without it. It makes me sleepy, so when I want to get some rest I use it to knock me out. It’s like Benadryl for me.

  • A Day in the Life,  Things I Like

    A Little Wine Is Okay

    I drink sometimes. I just have a glass of wine or some margarita mix. I never drink too much to get wasted. I never want that feeling and I’ve heard it’s horrible. I try to drink when I feel fine and have a healthy state of mind. I never drink when I’m upset. I love Moscato. It’s my favorite wine. I enjoy that with some popcorn and then I have it, the perfect tv night.

  • A Day in the Life

    They Upped My Meds

    Recently I got my medicine upped. It wasn’t a shock. I knew my meds were strong enough even though I had them upped once before. Recently I’ve been calm, very calm. I didn’t realize this was a thing. If this is what other people feel like, I needed this a long time ago. What I like the best it is that it keeps me asleep. I have trouble sleeping so this is perfect. This is a big change talking positively about my medicine. I had been fighting it since the beginning, but now I’m starting to see the good that can come out of it. I guess I can say…

  • Things I Like

    TV Is Good For You

    TV can be nostalgic and nostalgia can help people feel good and calm. I recently saw a Shirley Temple DVD commercial that put me in a great mood. I remember watching it all the time when I was a kid and I used to sing along just as I did when I saw it again. Most of the time I watch old tv shows. Before the huge controvesary, The Cosby Show was one of my favorites. I loved that family and they still hold a dear place in my heart. The show would come on at Nick @ Nite and they would play a few episodes. I would watch it…

  • Understanding You

    Learning From A Breakdown

    When I was all in my feelings the other day I learned something new about myself. Most of the time after a breakdown I would feel down, depressed, and embarrassed, but today I didn’t. I learned that you can control your emotions. You can choose rather or not you want to be upset or happy. Not every situation has to end badly. Yesterday was an example of me taking things to personal. In life, you have to learn how to brush things off and move on. It hurts to hear this. Actually, it hurts to even say it, but it’s true. Know that you are not the only one who…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress,  Things That Bother Me Badly,  Understanding You

    I Had A Mental Breakdown

    I had a mental breakdown today. Yes, ironic that I didn’t follow my own advice, but I was really in my feelings. I have a hard time dealing with change. It becomes my downfall a lot of times. My parents are the best at helping me, but it’s taking the help that is the problem. I know that it is easy, but I find it hard to move forward. So what happened to me today? I went to the psychiatrist to get my prescription. I go about every two months. The medicine normally lasts me all the way to then. Today as I sat down across from my psychiatrist I…

  • Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress

    How to Calm A Mental Breakdown

    I have a mental breakdown every so often. Often enough to be able to give advice on how to handle them. I remember at the beginning of this year I was very stressed out. I was getting ready to graduate college and very much on edge. I remember crying in my parents’ arms at least once a week. These are the things I did to get better: Have a distraction. When I’m in my feelings, I play video games or watch my favorite show. Video games get my mind completely off the situation. I can take my frustrations out in the game. You can check out more on how I…

  • Healthy Living

    My Healthy Living

    When you start off eating healthy you question what all you can eat. The answer is everything but in moderation. I started a couple weeks ago eating only at home and cutting out most sweet drinks and fast food. I didn’t think this was possible until it was. Eating healthier is the key to having a healthy body and a healthy mind. When you eat right, you don’t worry about your weight or how you look in clothes. When I started eating better I waited until about a week to get on the scale. It didn’t move. My mom told me that eating healthier is good and all but the…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress

    What Isn’t OCD?

    What is OCD? Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Not Overly Cleaning Dysfunction. I couldn’t think of anything else that was close. But it doesn’t mean cleaning all the time. I get tired of people thinking that. Cleaning can be a compulsion, but there are many more things. OCD is a mental illness that falls under anxiety but not anymore. But I don’t know what the people studying this stuff did but just know that if you have OCD you have anxiety. Anxiety can be healthy and normal when you’re facing a somewhat stressful situation. Things, like giving a big speech or taking a test, are good anxiety. Bad anxiety is forgetting rather…