• Understanding You

    Taking it One Day at a Time

    When I was diagnosed with OCD last year I wasn’t seeing much of my future. I was inside a bubble of fear, sure that nothing would ever change about me and that I was destined to be miserable for the rest of my life. The stability that I was going to gain didn’t seem logical and logical thinking was something that I had never really done anyway. My life felt as though it was going around and around and if the cycle was going to break I would to not only have to act different but think different. When your mentally ill your thoughts tend to overtake your life and…

  • A Day in the Life

    I Don’t Like Breakfast

    That most important meal of the day is my least important meal of the hour. I don’t like eating between seven and ten in the morning. If I eat waffles I want them at six pm. I used eat breakfast because I had to but as I grew older I skipped the meal. I didn’t want eggs and pancakes in the morning, but I loved to eat them at lunch or for dinner. I was convinced that I had to only eat breakfast foods in the morning until my mom told me otherwise. She told me that my grandfather ate whatever he wanted for breakfast so this gave me the…

  • A Day in the Life

    The Groans and Aches of Broken Bones

    I was six years old and leaning back in my green plastic kiddie chair in the living room watching evening cartoons with my little brother when I broke my wrist. I screamed and ran into my mom’s room with my floppy limb in my hands and I recall her saying, “I told you!” I had been told to not lean back in the chair, but it was fun and I never realized I had been doing it unless she said something to me about it. As a young child, I listened enough to get her off my back and then proceeded to do it again when she wasn’t in the…

  • A Day in the Life

    Me vs Exercise

    We all know that we are supposed to exercise, but knowing you are supposed to do something doesn’t make you do. Another thing, telling people what bad things can happen will not scare them into not doing something or doing something, thus the reason we still have smokers. But healthcare website, health bloggers, and doctors all agree that the best way to lose weight is to exercise. But how can one exercise when they don’t like to do it? I have come to the conclusion that I don’t like to exercise, and when I get started for a few weeks, I never finish. It’s not the type of exercise either,…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    The Bathroom Policy

    It is an unspoken rule in my house to never use my bathroom. I really don’t know how the rule started, but it’s in place. People using my bathroom never bothered me when I was a kid. Maybe because I never cleaned it, my dad did. I just pooped, peed, showered and bathed. During family gatherings, people constantly bathed in my shower and used my toilet. I actually didn’t care at the time and wasn’t bothered by the increase of germs in the atmosphere. I ignored those thoughts for many years before we moved. This may have marked the beginning of “The Bathroom Policy” because after we moved into our…

  • A Day in the Life

    Water is Good for You

    For the longest time, I refused to drink water because it tastes like nothing. I always wanted a soda or kool-aid or just something sweet. Sweet drinks taste good and go well with food. There is nothing like a good meal with a Coke on the side. I refused to drink water because not only was there no taste, but it made me have to pee so bad. I knew that these were not valid excuses for not drinking water. Water needs to be in our body. God made it that way and I have to accept that fact that even though it may be tasteless it is good for…

  • A Day in the Life

    You Need to Exercise

    A lot of times when we want to lose weight we stop doing the one thing that keeps us alive. Eating. We have to eat and most of the time what is causing us to gain weight is not food, but the type of food. If you’re a foodie like me, this can be hard. Food is one of the best things in the word and don’t get me started on dessert. It’s hard to stop eating and it’s even harder to stop eating what you love. There are hundreds of diets, but none of them are effective in getting your waist size down. To be fair sometimes a diet…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    I’m Not Stressed

    For the first time in months, I am not feeling like I’m going to explode from the inside out. I have been stressed out my entire life trying to do everything at once. I have put standards on myself that are hard to upkeep. I didn’t know what it’s like to breathe, but I do now.  I always thought that it was something that people who were established did. I couldn’t enjoy life because I needed to be established. I’m learning to live and let live. I know that I’m not letting anyone down except myself. If I continue to put high standards on myself I feel I would have…

  • Healthy Living,  Understanding You

    Experiencing the Daniel Fast

    The Daniel Fast is something my mom partakes in every year and for the past six years, I have avoided it. I have fasted before for one or two days. I only drank water during those times. Other times I have only eaten after twelve or after three. So fasting is nothing new to me. So you’re probably wondering why haven’t I’ve done this particular fast? Well… The Daniel Fast is completely different than other fasts because it lasts for twenty-one days. During this time, you are only allowed to eat food that comes from the ground. That means no animals or animal by-products. So it’s vegan, right? No! It’s…

  • Understanding You

    My OCD Has Become a Crutch.

    I never wanted to think as my OCD as paralyzing, but it definitely happened. I leaned so much on my mental illness that I couldn’t move forward in life. Simple life tasks seemed hard because I refused to do them because of my OCD. My mom decided to be completely honest with me. Like any mother, she said what I needed to hear in love. I realized that my mental health was getting worse instead of better. The medication I’m taking didn’t seem to be working because I’m not letting it work. I was not getting better because I didn’t think I could. If I am being completely honest I…