• Things I Like

    If You Can’t Say it, then Record it!

    I never realized how important YouTube is to my writing until I started recording again. I record what I think and then write it in a simplified way. I had started YouTube, stopped and then started again. Finally, I’m on track I find it relaxing to be able to just say what I want without having to think too hard about it. Yes, as a writer I think really think hard about what I what to convey to my readers. Sometimes, I can’t write it, I just need to say it. I’m not camera shy. I have never been one to hide my face, there is no reason to. I…

  • Understanding You

    I Can’t Fictionalize Anymore

    I used to write fiction every day. I never thought in a million years that I would write about my real life. As I got into college my love for fiction faded away. I realized that I didn’t want to write it because I wasn’t that good at it. So I stopped writing fiction. It brings me no joy. I didn’t give up, I realized that I was writing it to become famous and not because I wanted too. My fiction was personal and wasn’t for everyone. I feel embarrassed to share it with other people. So when I shared it with my college class I felt violated. I didn’t…

  • Understanding You

    How Your OCD Can Be Positive

    As a person with OCD a lot of times we focus on the negative. OCD tends to place negative thoughts into our heads or cause us to take actions based on a negative thought. We try our hardest to control our OCD so that we can focus on trying to keep it dormant, but there are times when our OCD can be active. Did you know that your OCD can be positive? Yeah, when I first heard this from my therapist I couldn’t believe it! I could take my compulsions and reoccurring thoughts and use them for good? Great idea! But how does one start to do that? Well for…

  • A Day in the Life

    I Started Doing YouTube Again

    I started Youtube over a year ago. I couldn’t get into the groove of posting the videos and talking about stuff I didn’t care about. I couldn’t grasp doing vlogs and telling people about my life and pretend it was somewhat cool. I couldn’t pretend to be like the other Youtubers because I wasn’t like the other YouTubers. I was trying to copy what they did, but their model didn’t help me. I started posting to YouTube again because I wanted to help people and share my experiences. Some of the things I can’t explain in writing I can say in a video. After I figured out what my niche…

  • Things I Like

    I Have the Best Lil Bro in the World

    I love having a little brother. He is the best dude in the world. He is one of my many rocks. I have three altogether. My brother Devin is a very chill person. He doesn’t say much and observes everything. He has an opinion and when you need it he gives it to you. His opinion is always honest and helpful. He makes a lot of jokes, but he is a teenager, so I can only expect so much. What I like most about him is that he listens. He tells me the truth and gives me advice as though he is my older brother. He is taller than me,…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Things I Like

    No Anxiety Medicine

    Since my dose on my anti-depressant was upped I have no need for my anxiety medicine as much. I used to take it twice a day but now I’m down to one. It’s feels great. You all know I don’t like taking my meds. I don’t like taking medicine period. I also don’t like the way it tastes. But since I see the results I feel better about it. Before I was too reliant on my anxiety medicine to the point I couldn’t go without it. It makes me sleepy, so when I want to get some rest I use it to knock me out. It’s like Benadryl for me.

  • A Day in the Life,  Uncategorized

    My Dad My Frenemy

    Hanging out with my dad can be a lot of fun. Most of the time we joke around a lot. We have a language that no one else really understands. My mom doesn’t really understand us. One thing I realized about my dad and I are that we are the same person. We think similarly and both need to have our way. This can be problematic because me and my dad have different anxieties. Our personalities clash all the time for this one reason. My dad’s OCD natures of keeping everything messes with my OCD of wanting everything to be organized and clean. I sometimes get so irritated with him.…

  • A Day in the Life,  Things I Like

    A Little Wine Is Okay

    I drink sometimes. I just have a glass of wine or some margarita mix. I never drink too much to get wasted. I never want that feeling and I’ve heard it’s horrible. I try to drink when I feel fine and have a healthy state of mind. I never drink when I’m upset. I love Moscato. It’s my favorite wine. I enjoy that with some popcorn and then I have it, the perfect tv night.

  • A Day in the Life

    They Upped My Meds

    Recently I got my medicine upped. It wasn’t a shock. I knew my meds were strong enough even though I had them upped once before. Recently I’ve been calm, very calm. I didn’t realize this was a thing. If this is what other people feel like, I needed this a long time ago. What I like the best it is that it keeps me asleep. I have trouble sleeping so this is perfect. This is a big change talking positively about my medicine. I had been fighting it since the beginning, but now I’m starting to see the good that can come out of it. I guess I can say…

  • A Day in the Life

    I Like To Feel Pretty

    I like to get my hair done, nails done, and put my makeup on. Things that make me feel pretty make me feel wonderful on the inside. Now I don’t have to have all these things all at the same time. When I get my nails done, I feel fabulous and the best part is I get compliments. My nails have cute designs and crystals that shine on my fingers. Sometimes I get artwork sometimes I keep it simple, but I need my nails to be done. I always get a super girly color, but it’s always cute. I get my nails done every two weeks. As far as my…