• Understanding You

    I’m Faking It!

    All my life I wanted to be a fiction writer. I used to write fiction all the time and felt the need to try to get into fiction writing. I have learned that once I got into fiction class I wasn’t the best fiction writer. Let me tell you something… I gave my life to fiction. It was all I ever dreamed of and I thought that when I hit fiction class I was the bomb. I sat down in my uncomfortable wooden chair. I was ready for everyone to praise me for everything I did right. I was so excited for that moment to come. I sat with my…

  • Understanding You

    Letting Go of Old Friends

    Sometimes when you get older, you grow apart from certain things. For example, when you become a teenager, you no longer want to watch Sesame Street anymore (well maybe.) But you catch my drift. You start to have different tastes in food and different interest in tv. And sometimes, friends. Well recently, I had this friend I stopped talking to. We were close, but once I graduated from college, I had different plans for life and he didn’t really fit in it. I decided to start a business and help more people with my blog. He is not really moving, he is staying still. I used to think it was…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Things I Like

    No Anxiety Medicine

    Since my dose on my anti-depressant was upped I have no need for my anxiety medicine as much. I used to take it twice a day but now I’m down to one. It’s feels great. You all know I don’t like taking my meds. I don’t like taking medicine period. I also don’t like the way it tastes. But since I see the results I feel better about it. Before I was too reliant on my anxiety medicine to the point I couldn’t go without it. It makes me sleepy, so when I want to get some rest I use it to knock me out. It’s like Benadryl for me.

  • Things I Like,  Understanding You

    Writing Is Therapeutic

    I gained the nickname “Writer Chick” from my mom because I write so much. I have a passion for it the same way some men do about football; in translation, I take it seriously. There has never been a time when I wasn’t writing something down. Expressing myself in words make me feel at ease. Anyone can understand me on the page if the did understand me when I speak. One thing I tried to do is to keep a journal, this was always an epic fail for me. I could never write down my day every day. I could, however, write down significant events, or strong feelings I couldn’t…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    Things I Can’t Talk About

    I have a lot of things that have happened in my life that I am perfectly fine talking about. I can put almost anything out there, but somethings hold me back. Talking about certain things with my family and friends that make me uncomfortable. I recently published a post called “What Triggered My OCD.” I read the stats and saw that not too many people saw it and then deleted the post, the word document and deleted the trash. I was a little scared only two people saw it, but it was better than thirty. I am fearful of being judged for certain things in my life because I have…

  • Anxiety,  Understanding You

    Coming Out About Me

    When I first got diagnosed with OCD/Anxiety, I didn’t want to tell anymore. I was embarrassed about having a mental illness. I wanted to be normal and normal didn’t mean taking meds to help my moods. But thinking back on it may have been my OCD that made me feel this way. When I got diagnosed with Depression, I embraced it. I was in denial about it for a few months. I even stopped taking my birth control believing it was the sole cause of my loss of joy, but I had been depressed for years. The first person I told about my illness was my friend who also had…

  • A Day in the Life

    Movies Are Boring!

    I can’t sit through movies. It’s not that they are boring, but my attention span is short. When I watch movies at home I watch them in segments. Watching them full on I lose interest in what is going on. Sitting in movie theaters is dreadful for me. I am okay with comedies because that is super entertaining, but other movies are not grasping me. I can possibly tell you what happened in a drama, but in an action movie, I can’t tell you anything. I find action movies to be boring. It could be because so much is going on. The only thing I see is he hit him…

  • Understanding You

    Telling the Internet Your Secrets

    When I created Where the Tiara Fits, I didn’t realize that I was telling the internet all my secrets. The things I write in the blog I wouldn’t tell anymore in person. It’s weird because there are more people who will listen to you on the internet. Maybe because they can’t see me in person? I don’t know. One thing I don’t like to do in real life is talk about myself. I prefer to keep my life a secret. If we are really close I will tell you a few things but not a lot. I hate to be judged. But I think of my blog as therapeutic. Many…

  • Understanding You

    How This Started

    So what has been happening to me? I have been discovering myself as a writer and a person. While I was in college, I had an idea where I wanted to go, but couldn’t get there. I tried my hardest to figure something out, but I felt my brain wasn’t working. I was stuck. I didn’t know how to move forward doing anything. I wanted to stop and stay under the blankets and hide. I realized there was no logic in hiding, but that is what I knew how to do. Then I realized something else. I had a mental illness. In a way, it was holding me back, but…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    I Don’t Like K (Use a C)

    I don’t like the letter K. The letter K messes with my OCD. I feel it is an imitation of C and if I want C I want C. I don’t understand how this letter has somehow snuck its way into my life parading around like it’s the best thing ever. To be fair, the letter K is supposed to be in some words, like kitchen and ketchup. But words like Krispy, absolutely not. C is for crispy. Krispy Kreme is committing the ultimate sin. I don’t know why they decided to use this K, I guess they thought it looked nice. It’s annoying to see words subbing C for K.…