• Things That Bother Me Badly

    Dating Isn’t Easy

    When I was younger, I was a little more patient with putting up with guys from my past.  As I get older I want to move on to a bigger, brighter, better, future. Not to say that these guys are not great, but not great for me. I have gone back and forward with one guy for a year and I was tired of him. We weren’t friends, and we weren’t a couple and he was always trying to control me. I remember when we talked he asked if I had a boyfriend. I didn’t, but that wasn’t his business, but he was always concerned about my love life although…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    The Bathroom Policy

    It is an unspoken rule in my house to never use my bathroom. I really don’t know how the rule started, but it’s in place. People using my bathroom never bothered me when I was a kid. Maybe because I never cleaned it, my dad did. I just pooped, peed, showered and bathed. During family gatherings, people constantly bathed in my shower and used my toilet. I actually didn’t care at the time and wasn’t bothered by the increase of germs in the atmosphere. I ignored those thoughts for many years before we moved. This may have marked the beginning of “The Bathroom Policy” because after we moved into our…

  • A Day in the Life,  Things That Bother Me Badly

    That Annoying Guy From Years Ago.

    Over the years I have learned that guys are weird. I have dealt with many different guys. Like I’m still getting messages from a guy I used to go out with while in middle school and he tries to talk to me on Facebook. The worst part is that he is married and has been for a few years. I haven’t had an in-person conversation with him since freshman year of high school. Guys are complicated and personally have me in no rush to have a boyfriend. But this guy I’m about to tell you about is more than a headache. When I stopped talking to this one guy I…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    The Annoyance of Cat Calling

    I decided to go walking to get my steps in. The area near my therapist office was a good place to get a little workout. I was more than happy to walk on flat land because where I live has a ton of hills and it discourages me from walking. The weather was nice and I had plenty of time to get some steps. As I started walking I had a few problems. The first problem was there wasn’t a sidewalk. I had to walk in the grass, but it was better than walking on a hill. I got a few good steps in before I passed this guy. He…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    When Allergies Attack

    I have suffered with allergies all my life so it isn’t a big deal to be congested or to sneeze a ton. I’ve been doing it since I was little. I personally hate when pollen comes to stick around because that’s when everything goes down hill for me. I would rather just have a three day cold than to have allergies for weeks on end. I mean feel like I’m sick, but I’m not. But I have decided to hide in the house. It does absolutely nothing expect not expose me to more pollen. There isn’t enough medicine I can take to make myself feel better. I was actually doomed…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress,  Things That Bother Me Badly

    Losing Hope in Yourself

    I listened to a sermon about hope. I never thought much about the word. I assumed that it was something that people relied on when they were in dire need. But hope was more than that. To have hope is to have a feeling of expectation of something to happen. Well, I didn’t know what I expected to happen within myself. I wanted to achieve so much in my life that I haven’t stopped to think when I was in the now.  I didn’t expect a lot of myself anymore because I kind of gave up. I did the one thing you’re never supposed to do. I broke the ultimate…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    Molestation Jokes Aren’t Funny. Period.

    I don’t know rather or not it’s the age difference but people over 45 see the world completely different than people under 45. Things don’t stick with them the same way. Or another way to put it they are not bothered by the same things younger people are. The #MeToo moment has became a big thing for a very obvious reason. Women are starting to speak up against sexual abuse. After being silent for years they finally have a voice. I am one of these women. So when someone makes a passive joke about molestation it bothers me. Because it’s not just a joke it is something that has happen…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly

    Bugs Make Me Anxious

    When I was a little girl my house was infested with roaches. This went on for about a few weeks or so. My parents tried to fix the situation themselves knowing little about how bad the infestation truly was. It had gotten so bad, that I had a roach crawl up my arm when I was brushing my teeth. I’ve never forgotten that. The whole situation traumatized me so bad that to this day I can’t kill a roach. I have to hype myself up to do it and even then I can’t do it. They are so ugly and crunchy. I hate the crunch and I hate picking them up. I…

  • A Day in the Life,  Things That Bother Me Badly

    Just Say Merry Christmas

    I get annoyed when people pretend like it’s not Christmas. I know that they didn’t forget because they are standing in a room with garland hanging over their head. I walk around in my Christmas gear spreading cheer and they I meet that one person who looks at me like I committed a cardinal sin. Celebrating Christmas is fun and cheerful. Some of the people you meet are past the Grinch but bah humbug. I don’t know why some people are miserable during this time, but I don’t think it’s because everyone has depression. I think that people want to spread their misery throughout the year. If they are not…

  • Things That Bother Me Badly,  Understanding You

    I’m Not A Snob. I Have OCD.

    I can’t explain myself anymore. People who don’t understand OCD don’t get why I turn up my nose at the sight of their dirty house. I can’t help but show my emotion on my face as I have to eat off of partly cleaned plates. I can’t get those thoughts out of my mind. I decide not to eat or to drink. I only keep to myself not wanting to hug or touch anyone. People get so offended. Unfortunately, these things are hard to explain to others. I know that it’s not really them, but they don’t know that. They don’t know that dirt on my skin irritates me. They…