• Dealing With Stress

    How to Take Negative Comments

    I stopped telling people about my plans and ideas because I was annoyed with what people would say. It’s not pleasant being judged for things you are passionate about. I didn’t like to tell people about my career choice because I knew the reactions were not going to be the best. I wanted them to be preppy, and happy but they weren’t. So how did I, or better yet do I handle the negative comments? Well if you asked me a while ago I would say cry in a corner. It was easy to cry, but it’s harder to do what I do now. Now I just brush it off.…

  • A Day in the Life,  Dealing With Stress

    Stressed? Play Video Games!

    I have already talked about how videos games can help relieve stress. So why am I mentioning it again? Well because it’s true. When I’m stressed I grab my phone and play my favorite games for an hour or so. It’s relaxing because I focus on my game and forget everyone and everything else. That is possible. Sometimes we need to clear our mind and what better way than to put your focus on something else. Most of the time I play on my mobile apps. I’ll play Linda Brown: Interactive Story, Homescapes, The Simpsons Tapped Out, Kingdom Hearts Union X, and Solitaire Tri Peaks. It’s a lot of games…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    I’m Not Stressed

    For the first time in months, I am not feeling like I’m going to explode from the inside out. I have been stressed out my entire life trying to do everything at once. I have put standards on myself that are hard to upkeep. I didn’t know what it’s like to breathe, but I do now.  I always thought that it was something that people who were established did. I couldn’t enjoy life because I needed to be established. I’m learning to live and let live. I know that I’m not letting anyone down except myself. If I continue to put high standards on myself I feel I would have…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    Ask Him Questions

    I sat next to my small group leader in an aluminum chair listening to young women share their experiences living in Christ. I remember when I first got saved I felt invincible. There was nothing that could touch me because my BFF was Jesus Christ. Everything was amazing, my friends all went to church and they were on board, life was easy. It’s hard for me to say great because I did meet resistance. Not everyone had a positive experience being a Christian. I learned this years later going through college and meeting people who were scarred from past wounds of losing someone or feeling as though God had failed…

  • A Day in the Life,  Dealing With Stress

    Night Showers Soothe My OCD

    When I wake up in the morning, the last thing on my mind is taking a shower. My eyes are still heavy with sleep and my mind is foggy, so showering is not something I want to do. If I shower in the morning I’m likely trying to wake up and that’ll take a while. If I have to go somewhere early I either have to wake up earlier or rush to bathe. I like to be clean so rushing to shower ain’t happening. So I don’t have to rush in the morning I take my time showering at night. I can stay in the shower as long as I…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    Mom Stress = My Stress

    When I was little I always paid attention to my mother when she cried. I never thought mommies could cry, but I learned at a young age. My mother’s pain was something I took on because I wanted my family to be perfect. If I took on her pain then I could understand her and help her get better. I know that I should not worry about my mother’s problems, but my OCD kicks in. I want a perfect family. When my mom is upset I feel as though the perfect family is falling apart. My mom is not good at hiding her feeling and I have watched her go…

  • Dealing With Stress

    I Will Be Distant

    I live in a family when I’m not free to express my personality. Interestingly enough my family is very silly and playful, but my ways of being silly and playful are rejected. I’m an outcast in a sea of people I thought would understand me. But they don’t understand me and they don’t try to. They want me to understand them and help them. I don’t get the same respect that they want me to give. My family gives me headaches. I don’t want to continue getting headaches and stressed out, it’s not worth it. So I have decided. I will be distant. Why you ask? Because I can’t keep…

  • Dealing With Stress

    How I’m Handling My OCD During the Holidays

    My biggest OCD trigger is guest. I can’t stand to have guests in the house. I’m not an introvert. I love to be around people, but I don’t like them inside my house. It brings me no joy to think about the things I will have to do after they leave. I go on an entire cleaning spree and it’s not good. So to avoid the stress of doing everything I normally do after guest I have decided to take some actions. If may seem selfish, but there is no reason to let guests go all over my house. I refuse to have any of my stuff stolen or broken.…

  • Dealing With Stress,  Understanding You

    Praying While OCD

    When it’s late at night and I have settled for the evening I start to pray. I have a one on one conversation with God. I don’t pray for a long time, but I tell God what my problems are and ask Him for things I need. It sounds super easy. But prayer became more complicated than that. I remember at one point it was hard to pray. Sometimes when I prayed I had a few issues. When I talked to God, thoughts I didn’t want came into my head and it was hard to get past them. Imagine ending your prayer and then afterward you think that you just…

  • A Day in the Life,  Anxiety,  Dealing With Stress

    Stop Worrying! OCD is Illogical!

    My dad can home from Walmart with a hand full items that he needed for the week. In the bag was a box of pink-eye reliever. I panicked for a second, but then I stopped.  My mom told me that my dad’s eye was hurting for a week. He also didn’t have a red eye or crust around it. My dad didn’t have pink-eye. If my dad had pink-eye that means he would have given to my mom, me, and my brother a few days ago. My dad’s OCD was causing him to panic about something that wasn’t true or didn’t make any sense.  He was working based on thinking…