I remember when I was a kid I always had one song stuck in my head. For the life of me I can’t remember where I was when I first heard it. The memories I have are false. I found that out through looking up when the song first came out, 2006. The memory I recall comes from 2005. That’s a year difference. In 2005 and 2006 I lived in two different houses.
I always wanted to hold on to this memory because it was so positive and fun, but knowing that I had fabricated it made me upset. Memories are weird because depending on the details what you recall and what others recall can be completely different. But even though I know the memory is fabricated, I still have positive memories of the song.
“Right Where You Want Me,” by Jesse McCartney came out in 2006 and played every single day on Disney Channel for the entire Halloween season. I was more than happy to sit and wait for the Halloween Town movie preview to play so I could sing along to Jesse. I didn’t have a crush on him or anything, but I loved hearing him sing.
I feel like that might be the beginning of my connection with music, but I really can’t remember. If I could I would, but I can’t. Music has always been good to me. I have always found a song that I wanted to listen to or play in the background.
I never knew how much I loved music until I was older. Music was always background noise for a lot of people whether they were driving or eating or working or doing God knows what. I enjoy music for the simple reason of just having background noise, but music is not background noise.
When I play a song it like I can go through an entire movie in my head over and over again in just a few short minutes. This probably what people do when they read books, but I find that if a melody is playing in the background I can actually develop the beginning, the climax and the end of a story.
Even though pretty boy Jesse started my first “musical connection” I knew that I had a few others started from my past that didn’t carry over past the age of four. Those songs were nice when I was young, but they did nothing. They were just songs. Okay, they were fun to blast then, but now I’m just like, I can do better. But, before I move on I will describe what a “musical connection” is. A musical connection is when you have a song that you like a lot and the song is related to you even if you have a good or bad relationship with the song. For example, I don’t have a very great relationship with the song “Oh Oh Oh Baby” by Britney Spears. This was the song I had to practice a cheerleading routine for a cheerleading team I never even made. So when I hear this song it brings back negative memories, so I avoid it. We are not friends. Although me and “Oh Oh Oh Baby” are not friends, me and the rest of the “Blackout” album are.
For my tenth Christmas my mother surprised me with the most wonderful present of all time; the iPod Nano. I had never heard of an iPod until I got an iPod. I only had a cd player that needed AA batteries every few months or weeks. I could play one cd at a time and I had my cd case just in case I wanted to change from a different artist because who doesn’t do that? This was a lot to chug around but I loved music so much I just dealt with it. When I got the iPod, there was no more dealing with it anyone. I could successfully put hundreds of songs into one portable device and charge it to the computer as I needed.
So I brought one of my favorite songs “Promiscuous” by Nelly Furtado. I heard it on the radio and I fell in love at first listen. I knew all the lyrics back and forward and constantly played the song over and over. I never knew what really got me into this song because I knew that I wasn’t promiscuous, I was elven. But there was something about that drum beat that made me dance around my room. I loved staring at the little image of Nelly at the bottom of my screen with the word “Loose” written loosely at the bottom.
One of my favorite connections is with “Future Sex Love Sounds” by Justin Timberlake. The “Future Sex Love Sound” Cd is me and I’m the future sex love sound Cd. I could actually tell you the order in which every song played and I could also tell you the order backwards. I know none of these things would get me a cookie, but I was happy to know that. I use to listen to the album and think about the songs I would want my husband to sing to me because I had already planned my life. Justin’s cd was very romantic in a way almost every song was about getting “her” in a position, but I didn’t care. I felt cool that I knew every song and was able to listen to the cd on my way to school and later when I go home. I don’t know why but listening to JT sing “I know what you want and that makes you just like me” made me feel so grown.
Even though my first memory of my musical connection was fabricated, the rest of these memories were not. I loved music and music has been kind to me. I know I’m not the only one with deep connections with music. I just love expressing how I feel.