For starters having OCD makes it to where to I can’t let things go. I mean I can hold on to things for years and never let go. To be fair with some medicine and therapy I have been doing better. But one thing that I tend to hold on to is my interactions with people. Let me explain.
When I have an interaction with someone, depending on how it goes, I think about what went right and wrong in the situation. If I have an argument with someone I think about what I said and rather or not I was wrong. I can do this for days afterward.
I can go over the situation over and over until I come to a conclusion. This is an unhealthy and inefficient way of dealing with things. Dwelling on it and going over it to try to figure it out doesn’t help anything. Trying to let things go is hard for me. I know a lot of times my family wants to tell me to move on, but I can’t.
In recent times I have done better, but in the past, I couldn’t. So, how else does this affect me? Well, it makes it hard for me to forgive. Forgiveness should come once you move on.